I guess that was my goal. And thats not in a 'look how clever I am, ha ha it's a metaphor' way...
I've been saddled with some baggage for years now, some of it is mine, and some of it has been imposed (by my own actions...but nonetheless) and it has been years and years sice I've felt free to do what I want.
What I want though, has been a 10 year kind of discovery and has crested in this project, which in lots of ways is here to say more than any of it being actual 'music', which is why at this stage of the game I question if I'm actually a real musician.
Which is cool, because I've been into the technical aspects too, and thats been gratifying.
I would be fine performing for people with an acoustic guitar and talking. Maybe joking around.
I'd like to play bass for someone. Someone who is subtle and established. Something I don't need to be the focus.
I'd like to do a funny tv show with very few creative limitations. Something profitable so I don't have to stress about chasing my past. I think my true desire for music has been curbed since probably Infinity. However, the recent stuff truly does move me, it just has become a real byproduct of the whole 'discovery' trip that most of us move through at this age. My skill set for work other than what I've established is pretty slim, so finding angles gets more complicated.
So there it is. I think these four records are really cool. I don't dispute any of the critisisms, nor do I take them to heart past 'yeah, I knew that one...' or 'nah, I think they got that one wrong'
We'll see. My goals are pretty defined now: get happy. Pay off debts. work less. be at peace with it all as far as you can. be a good father. don't be too much of an asshole.
We'll see. If I'm meant to figure it out, I will. If not, it's not for lack of trying.
I've been saddled with some baggage for years now, some of it is mine, and some of it has been imposed (by my own actions...but nonetheless) and it has been years and years sice I've felt free to do what I want.
What I want though, has been a 10 year kind of discovery and has crested in this project, which in lots of ways is here to say more than any of it being actual 'music', which is why at this stage of the game I question if I'm actually a real musician.
Which is cool, because I've been into the technical aspects too, and thats been gratifying.
I would be fine performing for people with an acoustic guitar and talking. Maybe joking around.
I'd like to play bass for someone. Someone who is subtle and established. Something I don't need to be the focus.
I'd like to do a funny tv show with very few creative limitations. Something profitable so I don't have to stress about chasing my past. I think my true desire for music has been curbed since probably Infinity. However, the recent stuff truly does move me, it just has become a real byproduct of the whole 'discovery' trip that most of us move through at this age. My skill set for work other than what I've established is pretty slim, so finding angles gets more complicated.
So there it is. I think these four records are really cool. I don't dispute any of the critisisms, nor do I take them to heart past 'yeah, I knew that one...' or 'nah, I think they got that one wrong'
We'll see. My goals are pretty defined now: get happy. Pay off debts. work less. be at peace with it all as far as you can. be a good father. don't be too much of an asshole.
We'll see. If I'm meant to figure it out, I will. If not, it's not for lack of trying.