DVD's are totally ripable. Most tools are paid though

Taking acid and waking up 8 hrs later in a police cell naked and a £160 fine.... totally un-awesom.

Taking acid and waking up 8 hrs later in a police cell naked and a £160 fine.... totally un-awesom.

What did they get you for? Walking around the park pondering every intricacy of life all at once?

Well today the next scroll was unravelled

I found out who this lad 'she' has been seeing.

I dont know him too well, but i know who he is.
He's called Alex. He works where she works. They've been working there together for a while. He's an upbeat, always cheerful guy. He listens to dance music - the complete opposite to what she likes. My sister once went out with him a few years ago for a short while.
He knows me, and when me and Lu ("her") were together, when she had a party for her 20th birthday (last May)... he was there, and was like "Aaadeen!! We have the same birthday!"... (cus our birthdays are both on the 24th)

He seemed to think i was alright...

As far as my sister knows, he's the kind of guy who doesn't stick with one girl for too long, doesn't like to settle down and just wants to sleep with girls... which makes perfect sense with what Lu told me - "Its nothing serious and i dont want it to be"... in other words "Im just having sex with him".

I dont know if he knows about how i've been taking all of this. For all i know she could be saying that we've been split up for a while... He's always seemed like a friendly guy from what ive seen, so he either doesn't know what she's done to me or put me through... or is actually a typical fucking guy, who doesn't give a shit about the hell someone else might be going through, if it means getting his dick wet.

Im not worried they'll last long together, cus thats not what they want... but nonetheless, this really is the hardest experience ive ever had in my life.

I really hate to say, cus i feel so twisted for saying it, but 3 years ago my Dad died of cancer, but the pain i feel now is worse than what i felt then.
Yes, that sounds fucked up, but i admit i wasn't extremely close to my Dad... but he was still my Dad, and it feels so wrong that this has hurt me more than him passing away. Am i really fucked up for that?

I really feel like Lu has changed, with all of this. She seemed to be really grateful for me to actually love her during our time together... like if someone like Devy, who meets new people every day, was to say to you "you're a really cool guy, you've inspired me, im glad to have met you" - it'd make you feel so special, and thats what i made her feel. Thats what she made me feel. We both didn't particularly think highly of ourselves, and to have the other person "ACTUALLY LIKE ME!!!"... it was amazing
but within a couple of weeks, its completely changed... its almost like i mean nothing to her now. Im just an annoying memory of the past who just wont disappear out of her life - someone who isn't "worthy" enough to be accepted by her

And along comes this Alex... who, like nothing, is invited into her bed for "just some sex"

...So, im rejected by the "love of my life"... and along comes another lad who like nothing, gets the privilege of fucking "the love of my life" - in the bed i have so many memories in, completely demolishing me and crushing me into a pile of shit on the floor... all to say "hey mate! i got lucky last night with this fit bird"

Its so fucking horrible. Life is the biggest piece of shit ever. Who invented it? - stupid person

I know i'll get through it... and i know millions of people have been through this before, so its stupid for me to sit here saying "I cant cope!!!" ... but i just fucking hate this, and i hate knowing that the next year (at least) of my life is gonna be full of little stabs in the heart, every time i see a picture of her, every time i see the name "Lucy", every time somebody mentions the word "gig" - reminding me of the deep cuddles i had with her at them, and the fact our first kiss was at Bloodstock Open Air... its going to suck so much

I love Bloodstock. Its the best festival in the country by far. I want to go there every year. But now every time i'm there, its gonna be trailing me, a demon-voice; "this is where it all started. This is where the happiest time of your life began, but its ALL GONE NOW ADEY!! ITS ALL FUCKING GONE!!!!"



Fucking lucky motherfucking shitpiss fuckface... fucking ungrateful fucking dirty whore... AAAARGH!!

How can people be like this?... jesus fooking christ... I so badly hope i find someone who actually respects the love i have to give them sometime soon.

To all of you out there with girlfriends/boyfriends/husbands/wives - congratulations, you really have something special. Make sure you never take it for granted - I know everyone here are decent people, but even the best of people can fall into whirlwinds of messed up thoughts/emotions. If you're with them now - turn around, go up to them, and hug them
Its awesome that you must be so happy, and hopefully someday i'll be able to rejoin you in that happiness.

PS - sorry for the swearing

Man I know its rough, real rough...but you need to move on my friend. From the sound of things, you two grew apart(much like me and my most recent ex). It happens, you think you love someone then shit gets thrown in your face for caring too much.

One of the biggest lessons I ever learned was to care for yourself first, then the people close to you.

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To all of you out there with girlfriends/boyfriends/husbands/wives - congratulations, you really have something special. Make sure you never take it for granted - I know everyone here are decent people, but even the best of people can fall into whirlwinds of messed up thoughts/emotions. If you're with them now - turn around, go up to them, and hug them
Its awesome that you must be so happy, and hopefully someday i'll be able to rejoin you in that happiness.

PS - sorry for the swearing

Yeah, you really should watch your goddamn, motherfucking, piece-of-ugly-fucking-shit language. I jest (and doubt anyone here really gives a shit).

Anyway, I don't want to give any real advice, because I'm not in your shoes, so I don't know how things are going. But since there are new installments to this fairly regularly, I thought I'd give an opinion or two. I may be off base with some of it--just disregard it.

It sounds to me like you're seeing things in black and white. If you grew apart, or never in actuality had quite as serious a relationship as you perceived, it's reasonable to take alternate romantic interests. It happens--it's not the best of feelings, and I'm not saying she's right to blow you off. But in the long run, it's much better to be without a relationship than in one where your significant other is less than interested. Relationships come in many colors and hues; they're not just either good or bad. Since it sounds as though she's only interested in minimal romantic involvement and just the carnal fun of sex, it doesn't sound like you two would work out together.

The point I'm trying to make is that life goes on with or without this girl. Even if she was "the one" (read: that concept is totally imaginary) or what have you. You should try not to think so much about having loved and lost, but that you're still alive and have a life to live. Honestly, I've been where you are, and it's not the end. Blowing this a tad out of proportion is only going to complicate things and exacerbate your woes (primarily with yourself).

My girlfriend and I have been together for just over two years, and I am incredibly happy to be with her. She's a great girl, and our relationship is fantastic. But I must point out that it's a very sweeping generalization to see relationships as positive and being single as negative. They're the same in that they both have the potential to be may different things (see Hamlet: nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so).

To sum up, keep your chin up, focus on the way things go and not the way they've gone, and don't feel a need to cling to what was. Life is too short to be caught up in the idea that someone else is important enough to consume your life. And again, disregard this if you want. Best wishes, regardless.

Taking acid and waking up 8 hrs later in a police cell naked and a £160 fine.... totally un-awesom.

What did they get you for? Walking around the park pondering every intricacy of life all at once?

for indecent exposure and drunken disorderly, they put it down to 'being spiked' cause I dont remember it.

...

To all of you out there with girlfriends/boyfriends/husbands/wives - congratulations, you really have something special. Make sure you never take it for granted - I know everyone here are decent people, but even the best of people can fall into whirlwinds of messed up thoughts/emotions. If you're with them now - turn around, go up to them, and hug them
Its awesome that you must be so happy, and hopefully someday i'll be able to rejoin you in that happiness.

PS - sorry for the swearing

Yeah, you really should watch your goddamn, motherfucking, piece-of-ugly-fucking-shit language. I jest (and doubt anyone here really gives a shit).

Anyway, I don't want to give any real advice, because I'm not in your shoes, so I don't know how things are going. But since there are new installments to this fairly regularly, I thought I'd give an opinion or two. I may be off base with some of it--just disregard it.

It sounds to me like you're seeing things in black and white. If you grew apart, or never in actuality had quite as serious a relationship as you perceived, it's reasonable to take alternate romantic interests. It happens--it's not the best of feelings, and I'm not saying she's right to blow you off. But in the long run, it's much better to be without a relationship than in one where your significant other is less than interested. Relationships come in many colors and hues; they're not just either good or bad. Since it sounds as though she's only interested in minimal romantic involvement and just the carnal fun of sex, it doesn't sound like you two would work out together.

The point I'm trying to make is that life goes on with or without this girl. Even if she was "the one" (read: that concept is totally imaginary) or what have you. You should try not to think so much about having loved and lost, but that you're still alive and have a life to live. Honestly, I've been where you are, and it's not the end. Blowing this a tad out of proportion is only going to complicate things and exacerbate your woes (primarily with yourself).

My girlfriend and I have been together for just over two years, and I am incredibly happy to be with her. She's a great girl, and our relationship is fantastic. But I must point out that it's a very sweeping generalization to see relationships as positive and being single as negative. They're the same in that they both have the potential to be may different things (see Hamlet: nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so).

To sum up, keep your chin up, focus on the way things go and not the way they've gone, and don't feel a need to cling to what was. Life is too short to be caught up in the idea that someone else is important enough to consume your life. And again, disregard this if you want. Best wishes, regardless.

That was pretty helpful, since i'm going through a bit of a rough patch myself, after trying to fix the remains of a 2 yr relationship gone bad, i got the band news over msn of all things that shes met someone new... which kinda tore me up inside. even though all my friends are all "be around your mates more often" or "just forget about her" its not that easy considering you spent pretty much every hour with that person and now shes with someone else its a sickening thought that keeps me awake and puts me off my food. But she is gone and thats that. I have to deal with it and we all do. Just dont know how yet.

Argh shit, sorry about that. I know exactly what you mean, with not sleeping and being put off food... i had the exact same. You were together for half a year longer - maybe this is harder for you than this has been for me... i feel for you man!!

I completely lost my apetite, i lost about 10 pounds in a couple of weeks... but im guessing a lot of that was to do with water in my body as well... or whatever, im no biologist... but whatever, i still lost weight, and im not even chubby or anything. I lost weight i didn't know i had, lol.

I found eating really emotional for some fucking strange reason. I'd take my dinner into my room, take the first bite and start pouring with tears... really strange but it kept happening.

I get a bit tired of my mates constantly telling me to be with them as much as i can to take my mind of it...

I feel like i need to get it out of my system. "Taking my mind off it" will only prolong this feeling longer...

My sister has been an amazing help. She's really like me in terms of the way we think and feel... she really cares about me and will do anything to help me through this, its so amazing of her.

Thanks for the comment Soundsofentropy

Lately i have been managing to say "well fuck you... taking my love for granted like that!" properly for the first time. I tend to blame myself for most things... i hate being big-headed... i find it so hard to say "I'm right"... but in this case, i really can admit that she's been/being a bitch.

Im trying to forget the 'perfect' girl that she was during our time together, cus it only makes me miss what we had. She has hurt me, a lot... and she hasn't cared, therefore, she has been a cold, stonehearted, harsh fool and im not gonna let what she's done drag me down any more.

(It still will... im still gonna cry every now and again, but generally, im on the uprise)

Dunno where im going with this now, so i'll shut up

But thanks everyone, you people are truly great people

Taking acid and waking up 8 hrs later in a police cell naked and a £160 fine.... totally un-awesom.

What did they get you for? Walking around the park pondering every intricacy of life all at once?

for indecent exposure and drunken disorderly, they put it down to 'being spiked' cause I dont remember it.

Damn. How much did you have?

Around 1 and a half doses, one half more than everyone else. it wasnt nice.

Ye we broke up around a year ago, but we got back together bout 2 times since last feburary, most recently this xmas gone, from then I was constantly trying to fix what we had lost. Ive always had a good sense of knowing when somethings up. She kept telling me she doesnt have feelings for me, but after breaking up and getting together over 7 times in 2 years I didnt listen to her and kept pushin, Until she told me shes met someone. Which pretty me caught me off balance.

As for the eatig and sleeping, I have stress enduced insomnia and since all this crap ive been getting round 15mins-1 hour sleep. and eating ive lost around 1 stone from the past month or so, dont know why but just a slight thought about her with another guy makes me sick to my stomach (Literally) and keeps me awake at night, But I just dont understand why she wants to be 'my friend' when I told her I cant be around her while shes sleepin with other guys... which she interprates as "not wanting to talk to her unles we're fucking eachother"

I dunno. So far im just killing myself with tobacco.

Hello, my thoughts. All I have to say is you aren't an adult until you've had your heart broken. Best thing to do is burn bridges and get the hell away, which is what I did with mine. It still pangs like crazy sometimes, but on the whole, you become a stronger person for it. If she's off screwing some other fella man, she wasn't worth it in the first place. The same thing happened to me, but we were still seeing each other at the time she did it. It's the worst feeling in the world, knowing the one person you pinned all your future on is a cock hungry monster.

So yeah, hang in there man. Not all women are like that you know.

Also, what in the world did we all do to deserve screamo crunk?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SLAmGUZ ... re=related

Ermm, sorry guys....

I have to admit to being guilty of assuming that men have the monopoly on sleeping around. My hands are up, I'm sorry! Also, of believing that men don't tend to feel breakups as keenly as women. Again, I'm sorry! You have all shown me otherwise. And I hope that things work out for all of you. Relationships are hard work, really, really, REALLY hard work, but if both parties are committed they can be rewarding (although not ultimately the key to happiness).

That is all (for now anyway)!

We aren't really the male majority though. We're all hyper-sensitive geek poets who listen to SYL and think about infinity and the universe and... shit. I know plenty of men and women who were just as awful as each other.

Dating in the noughties is like wandering into a pit of sexy lions.